A Varnish Cover

Varnish to cover the cracks
A sheen that glows through the murk
Layered on thick but watered down and dilute
Reflecting the world to hide all the dirt

A cement of sand without substance
Grainy with grit that flakes in hand
Enough of a wall to scare all only the confused
Barely bonded to take on the stand

Emulsion coated over fissures
Water repellent to stave off the leak
Sooner or later the colour fades away
And the flood returns a flow ever sleek

Wallpaper hanging by threadbare nails
Awaiting a saviour once more to arise
Only showing a picture if joy behind dark fittings
To slip away when the light burns and tries

Panelling that appears like oak logging
Is hollow and hiding the fragile inside
Would be easily lifted if the tacks are resisted
The façade to then fall to the aside

A veil that hides all imperfection
The first line to protect the failings behind
It shows as a mirror to deflect all the set ulterior
The last hope for the illusion undermined

JS
24/1/12

To Believe

To walk with her barefooted in the dew
To see a sunrise erupt from the gloom
To watch the moon as it takes the night
To see stars in her eyes a shimmering sight
To hold her hand in spite of the rain
To understand the diversion eked from pain
To want to be as to not be apart
To etch a future from an overgrown past
To desire this touch above all else
To give all life for her above the self
To wander only to find solace in she
To know forever would still too soon be
To believe as two that one is to live
To above all others only her to receive
To hold her heart as she holds yours
Is to believe your love will eternally soar

To walk barefooted in the dew

JS
18/1/12

Chill in the Air

There’s a chill in the air
On the tip of my breath
Burning through my bones
A solid forced through a mesh

Ice crystals stirring on mass
In the depths of my veins
Searing to my heart
Against blood pressure’s tight restrain

There’s a gloom in my gut
On the edge of tearing through
Crushing up this rib cage
An egg pushed into a crescent moon

An internal global warming
From a heart I thought had lost its glow
Melting every frozen particle
That could flood these organs if allowed to flow

Sand bags along the oesophagus
Blast the oncoming floods with ice
Bring about frozen equilibrium
So the chill comes once again enticed

JS
18/1/12

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Bowed and Broken

Bowed and Broken

I was bowed to you
Still you split me to the core
Made me lead towards an inferno
To brand me with your scores

Suddenly subservient to you
In the hope that wounds might heal
Still came the brow beating
The lashes landing never far apart

I stood on snapped bones
To be broken down to scrapped knees
Never to grow outwards from here
Just to fester in these rotten leaves

So I rooted down fast
Digging in as far as there was reach
With every beating endured
Brining nourishment to rooted feet

When the rains came
I grasped with braches out stretched
For you may have felled me
Yet in the end I’ll claim your breach

And as the sun rose
In springtime with warming rays
To bring me new life
A secret uprising without your say

I was bowed to you
As you split me to the core
But as I grow still strong
Your grasp on this will last no more

JS
9/1/12

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All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted was to be needed
Now all I do is cry as you’re bleeding
Was it that hard to stay by my side?
Instead you ran, I had to find where you hide

All I needed was you to be true
Left distraught and alone as you said we’re through
The last drops to fall were own not mine
Because I knew revenge would come in time

All the truth I saw was smoked and blind
The pain you inflicted belted from behind
In the end the snake caught its own tail
Lying on this floor now you are impaled

All the blind rage subsided as you died
It’s funny I thought I’d be empty not overjoyed
So I’ll leave now another coffin in the ground
As I entered the world you left no one heard a sound

All these deaths I purvey caused by others hands
Not a case of me burying a head in the sand
If I’m injured I attack it’s the way I survive
What does it matter that I never thrive

All these hands know is life after loss
Wanting to be loved with its happiness gloss
Turning to walk away it’s time to move on
So says the raven with her after life song

All I ever lost was the want to be needed
Now all I do is suffer with the bleeding
It’s always so hard to stay by my side
As even myself I cannot somehow abide

JS
9/12/11

Wanted You

I wanted you to notice me
Not to stop, stand and stare
Needed you to welcome warmly
But instead all you gave was cold glare

I wanted you to hold me
Not to choke air from my lungs
Needed you to embrace this
Instead you took this as weakness undone

I wanted you to need me
Not to laugh and ridicule this being
Needed you to want me around
Instead you left me ruptured and bleeding

I wanted you to touch me
Not to slap my hand away
Needed you to caress this face
Instead left a stinging welt the scar of your play

I wanted you desire me
Not to despise my very care
Needed you to accept this mess
Instead what you did showered me in scorn

I wanted you to love me
Not to abhor me out of spite
Needed you to open the door
Instead all you had was jeers of delight

I wanted you

JS
28/11/11

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Dizzy


I feel dizzy infused with the power of a dove
Driven to distraction by this
Strange and unyielding buzz

My legs feel heavy with the vacuum cleaner’s dust
It can’t stop the momentum
Of these feet in forward thrust

Suddenly nauseated by the freedom up above
A bile of sweetbread saltiness
Encased in the walls of love

This body does tire in the fighting of the wind
Best move forward a chess piece
To meet check mate before the king

Knocked to the floor as a ship with broken sail
Shattered on memory rocks
An epic journey set to fail

Arisen back up again by the wing of a crow
Rise and fall the story of
How I have come to grow

JS
6/12/11

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